also known as “something’s gotta give” and it just might be my sanity that goes.  i am reading the book “crazymakers” and see so much of my dad and brother in it, and to some extent my mother.  i don’t know how much longer i can stand my mom taking turns living with me and my brother.  i know it sound really bad to say that but it’s true.  she is pretty much back to being herself.  the one that i can’t live with anymore - there’s a reason i moved out.  but the thing is, my brother and i are all she’s got.  thanks, dad.  am i bitter?  yes.  yes, i am.

i am very attracted to the idea of moving to a remote island with just my husband and children and having no contact with other people for a couple of years.