yesterday we were driving home from running errands and my 5yo wanted to hear the new ac/dc cd.  we were listening when the following conversation takes place behind me:

5yo:  what song is this?

10yo:  i think it’s “decibel.”

5yo:  no, it’s “back in brown.”

(i’m working hard not to laugh out loud right now)

10yo:  they wouldn’t make a song called “back in brown”!  this is “decibel.”

me:  i think they should make a song called “back in brown.”

i loved it!

also known as “something’s gotta give” and it just might be my sanity that goes.  i am reading the book “crazymakers” and see so much of my dad and brother in it, and to some extent my mother.  i don’t know how much longer i can stand my mom taking turns living with me and my brother.  i know it sound really bad to say that but it’s true.  she is pretty much back to being herself.  the one that i can’t live with anymore - there’s a reason i moved out.  but the thing is, my brother and i are all she’s got.  thanks, dad.  am i bitter?  yes.  yes, i am.

i am very attracted to the idea of moving to a remote island with just my husband and children and having no contact with other people for a couple of years.

the wasps.  they keep getting in.  i think through the chimney.  this happens every fall but it seems worse this year.  tis the season?

and while there seems to be a “day” for everything, this one does mean something to me.  i remember when my oldest (and then only) child was about one year old, my aunt told me i should have a half dozen because he was so cute.  you know what?  i did have a half dozen, but only got to keep four.  not everyone knows and that’s okay.  i know i’ll hold them in heaven and i look forward to it.

it’s part of growing up, learning to choose how we spend our time.  my oldest is having to decide on a couple of things today and he’s not happy with me for making him choose… but i know it’s the right thing, i know he will grow from it.  and i’m pretty sure he’ll blame me when he has to explain to people that he can’t do something.  lol.

i’m trying to decide whether to buy a new mp3 player or not.  i cleared off my old one and then when i went to put stuff on it i was told i was out of “sync rights”, so i guess the songs i bought i’ve lost?  i don’t understand how this all works.  i’m liking those new rainbow colors of ipod nanos but don’t know enough to decide if i want it yet.  i heard that the zune requires you to keep an active card that costs $15/month as far as i can tell and i don’t like that - i just want to buy a song, own it forever!  i guess there is so much fraud that these policies have become needed… it’s sad.

i remember reading an interview with tom petty and he talked about how he works on an album, getting the song sequencing just right and then wonders why he bothers because we’re all a bunch of button pushers anyway.  he sure has a point - i would listen to an album start to finish when i bought it.  i wanted to hear it as a whole work of art.  i still do that.  but now once i’ve done that i become a button pusher, but i like more than the “hits” because i’ve listened to them all.  on vinyl it was a pain to move the needle and with cassettes it was hard to find the end of the song.  but once cd’s came along, you could pick exactly what song you wanted to listen to and not listen to the rest and with mp3’s you just buy the one song and not ever even bother with the rest.  that’s kind of sad, too.

okay, i got way off on a tangent!  i definitely need more research on this mp3 thing.